There are moments in my life, I have asked myself that same question. Usually, it was at times I had difficulty focusing on my day-to-day life. Throughout so many phases in my life, I didn’t know what purpose in life I served. Looking up from that deep hole I felt I was stuck in. How to find the energy to bring in that makes my life worthwhile? It was dealing with my physical situation as well, which created the struggle to start my day.
I fulfilled my roles being a mother, a wife, and a grandmother with love for sure. I loved being part of the family connections. Most of all, I loved to be playing a part of significance in their lives. Becoming a widow, was a challenge. For the first time after 43 years, I needed to learn to be on my own. Not just practical, in my day-to-day life, yet no longer being part of our relationship. How to find a new balance in my life, as a single woman.