We all have been there. The confusion that arises when decisions are being made and people forget to inform you about it. It is like a sword that cuts both ways. It can be caused because the other party has forgotten to bring you up to speed. Or the other one isn’t willing to bring you up to speed along the way of the process. Either they are processing within their minds and they don’t show you the steps that have been taken along the way, or they don’t want the interference and come up with the conclusion or decision they have made. It can cause a lot of miscommunication when this happens. We all like to be kept in the loop when it comes to sharing information when there are things that need to be done. It is something we are being taught often when we grow up in our family. Not every family is about opening up and sharing. It also depends if you are a chronic talker or more the quiet one to process your own emotions before you can share what is bothering you.
I have come to a point in my life I have to face the reality of the illusion that I have held for so long. This departure of my loved one is making every illusion I had to crumble to the very core of my being. Since we met there have been struggles and issues to work through and this had not so much to do with our relationship as with his background and family. Of course, this was bringing in issues as well between the two of us caused by patterns and learned behaviour. We learned along the way how to make this work to our advantage, making all the differences become challenges and learning steps. The love we share is strong and solid and kept us moving through many difficult times. Now, this is a moment in our life we had to let go of this strong connection in a physical sense. Which brings up new challenges to work with.
This is one of these days I feel the tug in my Heart, bringing up energy of different emotions. It is a little bit of sorrow, a few tears who want to well up in my eyes. It is a lot of a wave of Love, the way I know I feel for my beloved, feeling and sensing his energy around me as well within.
There has been said a lot about the core of something, the core of the matter. Yet about the core of our inner being, is a different way of looking at yourself. Now, this is not something we are being taught at school. Maybe in some schools with a different perspective, more tuned into the spiritual ways of life.
We all are aware of the change of this year, it is coming to an end, which opens a New year for many to celebrate. We all are engaged one way or another, sending each other the best wishes and love for a new year to come. For those living on their own, it may be challenging times these past few weeks.
Thinking about the ones we had to see our goodbyes too. Or those who are no longer part of our lives anymore. Some moved to another city or a different country. Others just remain in their own place, while you moved away.
Movement is something connected with this changing of our calendar year in the western world. We don’t all have the same dates to celebrate or give thanks for the year that has passed.
How is it we all yearn for the Summer to arrive when we live in those areas where we experience different seasons. The way we look at this time of year is colored by the way the 4 seasons work. It also represents our holiday season in the western world. It will be experienced in a totally different way when you live in countries with a rainy season and flooding, or in desert countries, where the temperature is always high during the daytime.
In order to experience the impact, the change of the season has on your own system, you must be aware of the place you are living. After the Spring where every plant, a tree is coming back to life with flowers and leaves, we move into summertime. With the harvest time as well for the farmers of their fields of grain. Or the harvest of grapes to become wine. Summer is something we experience because of the temperature rises.
This topic is linked with betrayal if you take a look at all those synonym explanations. It has been played out I think, as old as humanity is after the split when the duality became the norm in our world.
Like cheating, breach of trust, the wounds that are inflicted are deeply felt and hurtful. It has many consequences for all parties concerned no doubt. So what is causing this kind of treachery, the deceit of the ones you love and have your trust. Is it lack of self-worth, self-love and self-respect that makes someone decide to start a web of lies. Root cause of all of the double-dealing is apparently fear of being loved, yet not able to love oneself deeply.
Pondering about the word puzzle as well how this resonates within it fell into place so to speak. Like we are walking on the spiral of Life, encountering all these stones along the way we step on. Or bump or toes on. To me, this always has been my way of visualizing it. Every time I stepped upon a stone, or blockade if you will, it was about a part of the puzzle for me to unravel. The challenges it brought up and the way I was able to bring back balance within myself again. This wasn’t about just a one time experience though. It is walking the spiral where all these experiences are showing up, every time bringing up a similar response.
This word frontier as the theme of the Month was resonating, yet it wasn’t clear yet what it would bring up. It’s the final frontier was also the first phase of a television series called Star Trek. I have been watching these movies and the theme song always was deeply felt. The words are calling out to my heart and soul as well the words that come with the final frontier. It’s been a long road. To explore strange new worlds. To seek out new life and new civilizations. To boldly go where no man has gone before. I think it was appealing to a lot of people not just at the time they were released. It still is compelling to many people all around the world. It shows how we like to explore beyond the borders and boundaries as a human race. Yet if we take a closer look, it appeals to the heart and soul as well.
Here is my little self-love poem for you.
A special treat and reminder for you beautiful souls out there.
Accept that wrinkly belly you have
Accept that rounded nose and that beauty mark on your back
Accept your feelings for that person, for that pet
Accept your mood swings
Accept your “dark side”
Accept the wholeness you are