With an open heart and mind
Sensing the joyfulness within my being
The sense as well of being on the verge
Of something profound and life-changing
The feeling of curiosity and anticipation
All wrapped up in one
Sometimes people want you to perform and deliver your best effort, in order to challenge you to do the best you can. When this is out of love, it will be not just a challenge, it is also about trust for the best interest they have in you. I think we all know those attempts to perform, one way or the other. In so many areas there is this demand to perform in something you are not always comfortable in. We know how to excel in those we are good at, comes naturally, or gained through hard work and perseverance. In this case, it is about writing an article about the topic Perform which includes performance as well the need to be able to deliver something worth reading.
Thinking about the meaning of this word, described as unique, uniqueness, it also brings up the word
authenticity to me. It also tells something about one specific person not a group, or one object not more
than one. So, to state I AM is singular, to express my own signature, my own uniqueness as a soul, as a
person, as a woman. I AM is giving the meaning to all that I AM. To express my own consciousness and
awareness. To stand out, to dare to be different as well part of the whole.
You only can be aware of your surroundings, If you are fully present in the now moment. Only then you
can sense the present energy, that is coming from those around you as well. How do you address your
ability in any type of situation you are finding yourself in? What does it take to be able to sense the
energy field and be able to connect with the emotional body as well as the mental and physical bodies? The
aura around someone is not visible for everyone, you have to be able to sense it with your other senses.
As well, your ability to read the layers that you feel is part of the whole in all its complexity.
Now I can hear you say, what kind of space are we talking about, the inner space or the out there space.
To me, these are connected always. Because the minute I feel the turmoil within myself caused by
emotions, I notice it’s the effect in my surroundings as well. The attention that is drawn within to deal with the
upcoming emotions, and most of the time the more heavy ones, I cannot bring it in at the same time in
my outer environment. The light energy caused by happiness, joy, laughter, and love is making every
task light and pleasant to fulfil. Yet the minute the energy comes with frustration, sorrow, pain even, will
make it all the harder even to start with the normal day to day routine.
We all are trapped within our illusions on a day to day perception of what would be appropriate.
Awakening and awareness are two companions in this process of clearing deep within the cells
Of our Beingness.
To become fully aware it is necessary to go inward to see, feel and touch what emotions are being stirred before you can start the process of clearing and cleansing of fear. For the opposite of fear is love.
So needless to say it is quite an undertaking we are being faced as a human being.
It all depends also on perception which starts with us first. What do we value, what qualities
do we have to recreate this balance?
I have come to a point in my life I have to face the reality of the illusion that I have held for so long. This departure of my loved one is making every illusion I had to crumble to the very core of my being. Since we met there have been struggles and issues to work through and this had not so much to do with our relationship as with his background and family. Of course, this was bringing in issues as well between the two of us caused by patterns and learned behaviour. We learned along the way how to make this work to our advantage, making all the differences become challenges and learning steps. The love we share is strong and solid and kept us moving through many difficult times. Now, this is a moment in our life we had to let go of this strong connection in a physical sense. Which brings up new challenges to work with.
Mixed feelings, who don’t have them. We all are familiar with the moments we are starting something new, from a new way of living. Or from a new start to make, or the first time we undertake a new adventure, small or big. Stepping out of the normal, into a new experience. Not always chosen, and not always from a happy place. The more when it is connected with the loss of someone loved dearly. Not always caused by death, also by divorce in any way or form.
When I noticed the topic that came up to write about, it immediately brought in so many moments. They were the ones that literally took my breath away, for a moment, just a gasp of surprise. Those moments were not always connected with love or taking by surprise. Sometimes they related to my day to day life, the wonders I witnessed. Or with the moments’ something powerful hit home. There were always those moments when I gasp for air when I am confronted with something that is painful and involves my loved ones.
This is one of these days I feel the tug in my Heart, bringing up energy of different emotions. It is a little bit of sorrow, a few tears who want to well up in my eyes. It is a lot of a wave of Love, the way I know I feel for my beloved, feeling and sensing his energy around me as well within.